To be honest, I have had my fair share of these damn goodbyes and frankly, I'm no fan of them. Today it was to my sweet Cocoa, my spitfire min pin. At 17 years old her health has been in decline and it was time. Doing the right thing doesn't make it any easier, in fact, I've been a hot mess all day.
This morning I did what had to be done. Thank God my vet keeps loads of tissues handy.. a river of tears poured in the exam room. As the sedative started to kick in she snuggled me like the old days. Into my neck and relaxed like she did every night for the 6 years she was mine. I believe she knew and was saying her goodbyes. That made me cry harder. She was my shadow, my darling little girl.
We leave tomorrow for Hawaii. I should be packing and not sitting here
purging writing (and possibly having a beer).. but I am. I just had to let you all know a wonderful little light is gone and remind everyone to love on your furbabies a little extra tonight. They don't stay nearly long enough.
Rest in peace, sweet girl. Mommy loves you.